Day 3 : My Parents

I was thinking about that list yesterday, and though ... was if I was changing the order of those letters ?

Yesterday was my Mum's birthday, and on July 25th it will be their 30 years of wedding !!!
And finally, I didn't change the order. Cheat is bad ! ;-)

So, it's time ; here's my letter for my parents !

Dear Mum and Dad,

Here's your little girl, your 3rd child, second daughter ... The hard one.

I know that many times I thought "Damn, I have to leave this house, I cannot leave here anymore", but believe me, my pride always talked before my thoughts.

You have four children, you want them to succeed, like you both did. You want the same for us.
Maybe I'll find my first job in a small and new company and will have my entire career there, career that will grow little by little, like the company.

One day you told me that after my A-Level I will be free to choose the studies and job that I want, you always told me, as you did for all of us, that you will never chose for us. The only rule was : go to school and graduate !

I went to school, to high school. I hated it. Maybe it wasn't for me, plus, I had no friends. Oh my God, High School was HELL !!! And, I had no idea about my future, no idea of what kind of job I could make ... I finally choose Arts and Culture. The school said I was admitted, it motivated me for my A-Level : one reason to leave Versailles and this awfull mood in high school.

I loved my four years of school and found some real friends, those who will be there for me. But I found no job after my diploma. You were there for me. Shaking me to do something : go back to the Uni because I was (am !!) young, go in a foreign country to see how it is, ... A lot of things. Even if I was tired to hear always the same things at home, I listened to you and filed for another year of studies. I needed it. At 23, I needed at least one year somewhere else. Lyon... Not so far away.

Lyon has been a hard year and a wonderful year. I miss Lyon, I miss my new friends, my new family (yes those crazy people with a lot of piercings and tatoos !!!). I still have no job ; but you're still here, kicking my ass when I need it ! See ??!! I filed at Job Center, and now (because I have THE good one) I accept to go there, and I have a new "friend". I went back to the driving school.

About driving school, thank you. After my last failure, you left me alone with it. You let me forget about it, and waited, without a word, for me to go back there, when I was ready. Believe me, I almost cried there the first time I went back (June, last time I failed was on December 28th, I remember it well because Dec. 28th is my brother's birthday, and next day we were leaving for New Year's Eve in Berlin). It was hard. But the hardest wasn't the fact that I failed, but the fact that you believed in me and in despite of it I failed. You knew I could have it, and I didn't.

I know you both believe in me, and I thank you for that. And I know that as long you will believe in me, everything will be all right for me. I am lucky to live in this family.

Thank you, and be sure that I love you both !

PS : point 43 of my Bucket list is "tell my family I love them", I won't use this letter to cross it ...
PS : picture was token in 2008 for my Mum's 55th Birthday. We decided, this year, with my sister to organize the perfect diner with dress code. It was a wonderful night !!!