Following your advices....

Let's face it. I am not a big reader.

I may need a month or two (or more) to read a book, I never read some classical books from French literature, but, whatever. The other day, when I received a mean email on a social network saying "your culture is really poor, read this book, I took it really badly."

How is it possible for somebody to judge the level of my knowledge and general culture on a short description (by short I mean that you have to select less than 10 books, 10 movies, 10 cds and then answer to some stupid questions). I admit, I'm not a big reader and I can't tell you who's the last Nobel Price in Mathematics, but, I have the culture I must have to have the dream-life I want !

Whatever. 

I don't read a lot of books, but I easily buy and read magazines, especially the Cosmopolitan.

The French March issue made a focus about people like me who can't say no. I read it once, twice, again and realized it was my own profile they were describing !

You know that I don't mind helping people, I kinda like it, helping the others. That's how my parents rose me, and I admit that I'm proud of it, they taught me great values, and that's great. But, I also have the problem that I can't say no. And so, I'm not sure of why those people are my friend or why those people wanna work with me ? Is it because if they need money, they will just have to ask and I will help them, is it because if there is one thing they don't know how to do, they just need to ask me and I won't say no.

The worst in this, is that everytime I feel that those people go too far away, I have an entire furious script in my mind, I hear myself saying enough, and, nothing. I have the words, but can't say it. That's terrible.

One of the points of my Bucket List is How to say Yes when I mean No. I should change it and write "Saying No"... The problem is that, I don't know what to do.

Last time I wasn't able to say no, it almost costed me a poster. Well, I should say it costed me a poster, cuz I took off my signature on it. I changed to many things, add to change original colours and fonts, everything, so I took it off. And you know what, I think that nobody noticed it... Wow. I should say thank you for your support guys ! 

Anyway.

If you wanna know some good stuff, let me tell you that things between the R-C and RF are going well... It's gonna be long and hard to wait the band comes back from Texas (they come back in a week, or 10 days, not sure) but, both suggest good stuff. Plus, the R-C wants to offer me a "job". In fact, they wanna sign a new band (another one) and would like to ask me to work on their tour through my company. I'm very happy.

The job interview was very interesting, now I have to know (still have to know) if I can sign the contract or not. I say still because since last week, the counsellor NEVER ANSWERED ! It's UNBELIEVABLE ! I may lose a great job opportunity because JC never gives phone number and because counsellors don't have the time to answer ! WHAT THE FUCKING HELL ????!!!!!

And finally, completely different, remember point #4 from Day Zero ? Well, after two years, maybe more, I finally gained some weight ! woohoo ! You have no idea how happy I can be !!!

Now, it's 15:24, I should go to the Job Center if I want a chance to have an answer !!!